My bio-dad is an ass, we all know this. I win this bittersweet battle. In the last journal I wrote about how he's pretty much taking my brothers away from me. Pretty much saying I can't see them, or coming up with dumbass excuses so I can't.

Well this week my sister Tiff. went to go up to Chicago to see him. I magically showed up with her, camera in hand. He was forced to see me, we didn't really talk a lot. We didn't really talk about anything important either. I really just kept things to myself for my sister's sake. We weren't close and didn't talk about anything of real meaning.

He tried to delay the time I had to take pictures of my brothers, stalling. Failing. We had to be somewhere to be picked up in five minutes and I rushed a small photo session. Alex stayed behind as Jr and Mickey came along for the ride and I practically cried.

The pictures will be good for me. But these are bittersweet, as I will probably never see them again unless they come looking for me at the age of 18 or so. Their mom is weirded out by me for some reason and well Fernando [bio dad] knows I'm getting my name changed and the man avoids me if he can- obviously as stated in the last journal.

So I have these photos. One of them all separate another of them all together. The pictures aren't the greatest..

But it was a hard good-bye. I believe it to be that, I pray that it's not. They are so loveable and never hurt anyone [save maybe Jr. Gangsta baby! LOL]...

I'm just happy for the little time we had. Half the time they weren't even in the room with us. He pretty much kept them separated from Tiff and I- I Believe it was because I was there, seeing as well Tiffany sees them a lot when she visits.

Anyway...

Maybe there will be a happy ending. Only time will tell.

I'll post those pictures- I've been waiting a long time for them and would like to share them. They aren't very artistic, but keep your eyes open for them.

Much love to los hermanos.